2022: Chapter One

Resolution: noun: a firm decision to do or not to do something.

 

Oh great, I have to make a decision. Let alone, a firm decision. With the turn of the new year, it's time to reflect over the past 365 days. Did I reach my goal of more time outside, less worrying, save money, live healthier. Honestly, I met none of those. Stack the pandemic upon change in routine and you'll get one anxious, passive 30some year old who's on the brink of burnout. So the tiring old saying, "new year, new me," rings through my mind. 

Maybe I can start with being firm. Oh goddess, if the universe would give me the strength to be firm on anything, I'd be grateful, count that as a win for the year. This is coming from the brain of someone that gets anxious sending back an incorrect dish at a restaurant, or simply picking the dinner spot. Time to give myself more credit, hell, lets start here. If I need to fake it until I make it, then fine. At least my actions are in line with the intentions and wishes I'm aching for.
So here they are World. Here is my heart on the line, confessing what I'm dying for. 

First and foremost, I firmly decide to listen to that gut feeling when I want to say no, instead of saying "yes". 
  • Speak up when someone's actions raise red flags.
  • Meet myself where I'm at; be kind, authentic, and honoring of my body
  • OH! And more live music! (Shout out to Andy Hughes who's currently playing in the St Bernard room, absolutely fueling my creative vibes.)
It might be the excitement of the new year, new beginnings, or the Voodoo Ranger IPA that has me feeling optimistic, but damn, there's something about today that has me feeling incredibly powerful and ambitious. 
I beg, oh goddess, let this feeling last! 

I'd like to also shoutout my therapist who's saved me from myself far too many times. Although you may never read this, I thank the stars for you. Please see chapter one, verse two for my letter to you. 

For now, heres to me in the new year. I've laid my intentions out in the universe. It's set into fruition and I will control the direction from here on out. 




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