Word Vomit

Sunday, December 14, 2014

As I fall in love, my every thought and emotion is focused on the bliss of her attention.
 She peers up from her laptop and I politely smile and blush in hopes she didn't notice me taking in her beauty nor read the look of admiration on my face.
Sneaking in a glance, studying the intricate features of her face and the soft lines around her mouth is how I spend my hours in the coffee shop. There's nowhere else I'd rather be than next to her...The one girl who could ruin you for all of eternity.
"Settle down," I tell my heart as its fluttering like a hummingbird. My lips nervously mutter the three little words I've been aching to say all day-- its like word vomit. No matter how hard I try to hold them up, she's breaking down the walls I've build up from the hurt of past lovers. Doubt and insecurity play off my fears while the vulnerability of a new relationship wears me out.
This dreary December evening is drawing to an end. The golden street lights cast a glowing shadow on her face and I find myself wanting to kiss the nape of her neck. Hungry for her breath on mine I take a leap of faith and pursue this beautiful, intelligent and adventurous woman. It's a risk to fall in love. What if it doesn't work out---ah, but what if it does!

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